Thursday, December 31, 2009

Dilemma

Dont take yourself seriously, no one else does :P :P
Now thats an awesome saying that i read the other day. But these days, there is a battle going on in my mind. With the respect to the ones which we wage day in day out, this is something which is much more dangerous and more tiring than others. With the constant gnawing on my head and heart, this dilemma (spell check done from MS Word)is making life less peaceful.
Job or Business ??? Now come on some may say, why work for someone else when you can do something on your own. But, here too there is not much on my own. Though entrepreneur sounds like an amazing word, it surely has a lot to it than just making it big. For every successful one there are thousands who failed. For the thousands who failed there would be millions who thought but didnt try. And i surely dont want to end up in that basket. I am sure of myself when it comes to marketing the SG based company's online portal. But now when i am supposed to design, modify and even work on new un-decided projects at Suntrack, it is going to be one different ball game. From those 5 star hotel stays and those wonderful corporate look, i now decide to enter the unorganised and the less professional sector of family business. Less than family business it is more of a 2 man army. The 2 men in contention happen to be my father and his colleague both with the experiance of some 30 years in engg. What am i to add to their wealth of experiance, but learn from them and hope to reach higher than where they are today.
Leaving the luxuries of a fixed salary and less botheration at the end of each month, i now enter an arena where i would have to make my worth felt. My brains would be tested and so also my presence of mind. My salary cant be taken for granted and my growth not in someone's end. My work, my beliefs and my horizons have to widen. I would be entrepreneur and i ought to think like one. What the fck does that mean ?? well, possibly just that for once, i would have to put in practice real out of box thinking to lead the company to more pastures and greener grasslands. It would be obvious that i would have to expand the company and the reach to more areas. Areas, unexplored and where the ball would be than where it is today.

But, then i would be leaving behind an entire pie waiting to be explored. It would be more than anything a very wonderful learning that i would be leaving behind. One thing certain that i surely didnt get the best rating just like that. I if at all get one, would be after several discussions and convincing on my part. How i wish, i could have performed better and also got a boss unlike mine :P. On a more serious note, the small 1 yr stint here taught me patience. Appraisal or not, it is more of the learning that i take to my own business. The feeling of it being own. Now thats something to ponder :)

The dilemma may just be something superficial, but it is more of fear and the butterflies of getting into the unknown and the ability to be of use and be worthy of the pay that i receive.

"Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But dont worry, God doesnt blink"

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Chaddi buddy ki shaadi !!!

Well, its just about time that the feeling has sunk in (physical trauma). Its over, its done and sealed. Not him, his fate. Yes, as one would have guessed even without the heading of the blog, my bestie got married.

The function as obviously in India was with the full rituals and fanfare expected at any wedding. Especially this one coz was the first in his family in this generation as well as coz was the first wedding in our group of friends.
The one who had decided to try and bite the forbidden fruit :P. As one of the chums put in at the end of the whole thing," We would now have to share him with one more person". Though, the love marriage meant that we knew our bhabhi since long and were more than aware of the happenings and the obvious happy ending, but for the actual process to materialize and hit us for something different from just knowing it.

The entire thing started with us dunderheads being called in for learning the dance to be done during sangeet. Now imagine, a bunch of nuts like us being taught how to dance !!. Not that we were any bad, but werent surely the prabhu devas. We surely knew how to shake a leg or two, but bring in coordination with not only the other leg that u had to shake but also hand and face movements meant that it spelled doom!!!! Thanks to Shailey (Apologise for the spelling mistake if any) that we nuts learnt to move our butts, and not in the normal ghati type dance that we know, but in a more coordinated fashion. Imagine, the time and effort she had to spend after us that each and every member not involved in the dance knew each and every step :P
Trust me, ours was the best dance, with all the rhythm and tempo that we had (or managed to get) by that time. Frankly those days of night time practice were the ones that we remember today and have the most attachment to. Those were the times when we would joke about, fool around and have fun with the whole bunch of his cousins and family. It gave us a sense of involvement beyond our daily routine and was a welcome addition to our daily activities.

The sangeet was ofcourse preceded by Bachelor's party of a different kind. Though, not to forget to the spirits, there were enough to put people(me included) on a fantastic high. Getting into the sangeet and the day next was wedding. It surely was the first wedding that i was attending where i got to dance in the baraat!! It was one life time of an experience. It meant that there was no reason to stop and that kush was surely not getting anywhere near the mandap any time soon. We started sometime 10.30 and after amazing stamina dancing by his IIM and IIT friends, that we finally allowed him to enter the hall and get a tilak by 12:40pm :P:P
Well, it surely meant that we danced outside the hall all for 1 hr with the best brains in the country shouting and dancing as if there were no tomorrow and surely there was not to be :) (He was going to be married)

The wedding followed by the reception meant that after the morning's ceremony, we were all tired physically but not on spirits and preparations for his night were made. It was decided to alarm him a couple of times at night involuntarily if so with the many alarm clocks in the room designated for them to spend their night together. That both of them were our best friends, meant that we had to be kind enough. Not to forget that our marriages were to follow sometime after theirs meant that that the tricks had to be small and innocent :P
Apart from delaying their entry into the room, we made sure that they were woken up at the best of the times :)) But then, as is said, what are friends for !!!

Jokes apart, this was the first time in ages that we had such marathon functions, day in day out at the end of which, we were all more tired and worn out ourselves. To follow up with these activities amidst our daily schedule meant that we had procrastinated a lot of our work for the days after marriage and meant that the first day in office after the wedding was not to be the most pleasant one.
Surely the times were amazing and ones to be remembered. One friend quoted in one picture,"We remember not days but moments". Surely the moments and the times were the best spent in a long long time and the most enjoyable. Thanks buddy !!!

Hope you guys have a wonderful and happy married life :) -- Fantastic 4 now fantastic 5 !!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

I.Q.

It surely is a wonderful day today. With me being awake at the time i love the most. Ofcourse --> 3.00 - 4.00am. It is the quietest and the most pleasant time of the day/night.
Oh for the topic of this post, I.Q. or Intelligence Quotient is something that people always tend to judge for the neighbour, or the aunty downstairs, or the bald uncle. However, the way we all look at the word IQ simply means something that relates to the ability to unravel the secrets of the world. The power to understand the known but unknown. To be able to quantify in physical form or through words, the very action behind the scenes.
IQ is undoubtedly a confused word. One who knows E=MC2 is a genius, but the one who knows that he loves the girl next door and would want to stay with her ever after isnt?
How strange is that. He too has guessed what the future would be like. On what basis one may ask. But, all i would say is that science is full of theories which are proven correct over a period of time,so is love :P
Naa... I am not professing about love through IQ, its simply that one doesnt really need IQ to be intelligent. It is something that is also present somewhere other than the brain and thats in the heart. At times your brain is dead as to what action to take and it is then that the heart decides what to do. To put it differently, only when the brain cannot decide, does the heart even bother to five an opinion. Not poetic enough, but it surely is true. For intuition, belief, telepathy and love are just a few examples of the heart's victory over the brain. Think more with the heart and not the brain said Albert Einstein (The character in the movie I.Q.)
Being intelligent or not, it hardly matters. In life, for me all that matters is to see that 100Watt smile on my gal's face, on that beggar girls dirty dark face, or on that wrinkled old face. Its simply the ability to be able to make someone happy in the honest and most humane manner.
With brain taking over, it would soon be time for tomorrow's cricket match and India to win the hearts of the millions !!! Go India Go... (No need for IQ, its simple EQ - some other time:P)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

2 States

A book well written. Half truth, fact, exxageration - people may have their opinion. But, as always the Chetan Bhagat has been successful in hitting the nerve. It is a mix of various instances in the lives of so many. They may not be necessarily aatributed to one specific individual, but to a group of people and largely gives an appropriate picture of the world around. The society, the people and the way of life.
From hum ladke wale hain, to folded hands, to not asking for anything. All of these are the different prisms of life. Alls well that ends well - it is said. But, do all love stories end like that. Keeping away from the sex involved therein, the mention of real places around IIM-A lends it a real feeling.
Hey, dont think this is a book review. He doesnt know me, and hasnt paid me a dime. But this title and story surely resounds something in my mind and hence the background.
Its always tough in any such story when you have to convince the other kind of people. People are people, one may argue. Undoubtedly they are, but the way they think, act and feel differs from state to state, region to region and going even micro - family to family. Who wouldnt die to marry and love someone like her. She is just the kind of sweet, cute friend that one would want to spend the rest of their lives with. The contrary actions (e.g. I may go on a picnic and not call u for the day, but if u are out of the city, you are away from me, so u better call me thrice a day) to the contrary reactions (e.g. If i am sleeping, i need it. If you are sleeping, you are lazy and should receive my call), females have a way of getting what they want. God made them like that. With their pretty eyes, pretty faces and curvaceous bodies, they may be able to lure many; but its the heart and the mind that finally brings the final correct decision.
Like in the two states, however modern a household may be. There are certain rituals always to be followed. Many like me would underestimate their (rituals) potential. But, then education doesnt teach us those do they? Cost benifit analysis doesnt feature when emotions and egos take a ride. Its so far so good. With all in control (touch wood) the going doesnt seem to be going any tougher. But, it never is an easy ride. From the fears to convincing to believing it takes time. The story isnt as short as written in any book. It takes weeks, months at times a couple of years for the higher authorities to approve relationships spanning, forget over two states, but even over two different regions. All the pain, the distance (reminds me of 'ye duriyaan'), the fights is all worth it when you have that 100W smile flashing from the pretty face. When you have the lady love in your hands, hugging you tight and those golden words reaching your ears. Surely there are rough seas to face and a lot of heat involved. But, the testing times have to be handled with care and caution. Like in the story, both sides have to like the children, but most importantly they have to like each other. And for that purpose efforts have to be put in, executed to perfection and then left to God :)
Yea.. he plays a role only after you have done everything humanly possible.
At the end of it all, let me be candid - Pyar kya kuch nahi karwata yar :P
Wish u a very happy Diwali and a wonderful new year :)

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Lets rock BD... !!!

Had i heard this is one of the hollywwod movies, it would sincerely have been taken differently. But, since this comes out from say Mr X daily, its the tiger and shepherd story. Basically - no meaning, no reaction, no action :P
To sum up the present situation. Its like the wrong people committed to the wrong people and expect us to be the right people to deliver the wrong :P
Na.. there is possible in im-possible, but then how in the world do u have a plan? Of course there is no plan. We cant possibly be playing on short term promises. We are here on a long haul arent we? Oh come on, i dont buy the thing that this month we do what we (Dont know who all approved) promised, then from the next month we are going to have a say in what is decided. Fck it, i dont need to have to take my company down the drain just coz i want more say in the Chairman's office. I can walk right in and talk to him. Monkey tricks to get attention ?? Well, seems nothing more than a gimmick. What is the vision? Mission? Long term plan and hence the short term actionable? I thought, there were mbas all through to the top, then why cant we follow this simple path?

3.5yrs and there has to be payback. I agree. I accept. But, 3.5 months and u want payback? I wouldnt agree with this philosophy and hence i remain quiet. It makes no sense to argue. How i wish, i could stand up and ask. who the fck promised ????
Also, what use knowing it. We have been over committed and how to do the needful when there is no one but u aware of the market and the forces therein? Why cant someone come in here and understand that this aint like any shit place in the country. This is so to say stingy land. We dont believe in doing anything in haste. Even if its just taking a free credit card, i would be making sure that i am not charged. I make sure how much I am getting and for what. So, if i were to invest my money, i would surely not be paying for something like MFs and that too for systems like these where more and more middle men come and play spoil sport. Its just too much for me.

Nevertheless, thanks to the festival season approaching. There is a lot of excitement and action to look forward to for the rest of the year. Work, is no doubt exciting, but hey !! come on, m a human and give me the credit. I have personally met and given more time to advisers amongst all teh BDMs. But alas, the amount is just about there. Cant really help much on that.. :(

But, i have a gut feeling. This would kick start once we have the non-wrap with us. Its something that would be a phenomenon. And then there is no reason for me to worry. I would be empaneling every tom dick and harry on to the platform and making them sell wrap and non wrap and retail wrap.. and whatever that comes on my way. So its like the target set for me.

For once, in my work life, i have been personally able to set some goal for me. Meet all nut heads by december, so that. When we launch the non-wrap , it can simply penetrate into the market without much of an issue.

Whoa !! now thats what i would call conincidence. Nothing pre-empted or pre-planned. I hope that would be possible and would work to my advantage. Business in terms of monies are something i would have to steadily work towards. Increasing the width of the cone mouth is something i would look forward to rather than trying to count my chickens. Its time before we start calculating our return on investment.

Sadly, either the middle layer has forgotten what they learnt in college, or possible i m wrong. Why not create a resource that would last us for long rather than trying to dry off the tap a little too soon? Either way, its hardly having an impact on my way of functioning apart from frustrating me and making me really upset and angry at times. I am more or less working in the same fashion and pace at which i used to. Just that now i have become more polished and aware of the systems and how people work and behave.

Looking forward to having fun, this wonderful extended-weekend ;)

Iftar parties

Iftar parties -- how in the world would i come up with something like that as the title to this conversation?
Well, it has little to do with the festival, but more with the celebration. Why is there a holiday on Id? Why do we all love to celebrate festivals of other faiths? Well, thanks to the secular fabric of our fore fathers and the compassionate heads that we have a constitution celebrating the rich and old cultural heritage of the country. However, sadly in spite of all efforts, each of these festivals remain nothing more than a holiday in the calendar of any working class individual. But, is it a little more than this? It is a lot more some would say. It is the time when people come together for celebrating, when people take time out of their busy, sick schedule and meet, greet and slow down. It is something which is necessary especially when lives today are polluted by emails, mobiles, laptops and all those necessary inventions which eat away 90% of our day. I have always loved the amdavadi tradition of keeping business shut when there are festivals. Staying with family and making sure that there is relaxation and enjoyment all around. Its these small iftar parties during the festivals that keep people going. Call it faith, or simply a ritual it is simply a wonderful feeling when ur house is lit up with lights, and oil lamps.
The peace of mind is just amazing. And its thanks to these, that keep the bosses at bay and let our minds be in peace.

Well, so as the festive season begins, lets get set for these wonderful family times and let our minds and businesses to rest for the time being.

Id Mubarak to all my dear friends..

Friday, August 28, 2009

Lost

No, I am not lost literally when we mean lost as in, not aware of where to go.. but rather literally, meaning lost as to why? how?
Havent really gone as crazy as this in the past. Its a new phase and hence the feeling no doubt. But then yes, this is what happens when you start working. When u shift focus from being friends, having fun, enjoying life to earning life, earning more money and even more ego. Friends are the things that have always had me sailing thick or thin and m sure would remain that way..(Drr.. u are the best one of course). But amidst all the work, the pressures and the un-necessary hassles of the work place and systems.. where is the fun lost.
Surely, going out and eating with all of them is not fun. Having a laugh at the end of the day is not something that makes my day. I get that kiddo like adrenaline rush when i happen to talk to my buddies or simply go check out a friend's ol NM album,or the Nirma album, or the school pictures. This is immediate remedy to my sorrow and feeling of utter boredom, sick feeling. Nothing cures heart ache better than a batch of awesome old memories.. photographs, chat anything i can lay my hands on.
Apart from all of this hooplah, there is also the issue of the friends themselves becoming a little more aloof, rather, more involved in their daily tribulations.
Been ages since i spoke to the wonderful juniors... Been ages since i ever went out to simply hangout and chill.. Be it on the beach, or simply on marine drive and had those endless, useless, pointless discussions. Surely, it has been a real while since i last fought in the real essence of a fight over something that we were all completely not concerned about, but emotionally attached to - SCR :P
My roomies and the late night chats on whose butt that is.. (inverted picture identification :P) to talking of who is doing what, where and since when.. it feels like far and as if disconnected..
IN SHORT ....!!! I AM LOST. Why ??? Coz my friends have disappeared. There is actually nothing to talk about when we talk if we talk. Some have stopped calling. Yes, seniors are gone and we are the seniors so why remember them?? Apart from the normal gossip.. we have all become boring..!!! I hate this life. I want my college life back. I now realise what it means as being in college and having fun.

Hell yaaaaa.......... chuck the sorrow.. look at the brighter side.. Its going to be a busy and involving next week in Singapore :P

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Success

A word that motivates, one that eludes many, something achieved by those who believe. Surely success has its own definitions as you go around asking people. But, how do you achieve what you set out for yourself. You do that by making sure that you work, you focus, you dedicate, you dream and ... you change.
A new product, a new concept, a price sensitive market. Everything that you may not consider as the best reasons. But then, had it been so easy, why would you have been asked to do it. Looking at a micro perspective, its a challenge. One which you have to succeed in. You lose, you dont deserve to be where you are. You have all the time in the world and the expertise that you may want to call, but at the end of the day, what you really have to have is the dedication to achieve what you set for yourself. How, one may ask. By evaluating your own performance, identifying the basics of the market and playing along to be successful. Most of all, you shouldnt be upset by the 'No'. You should be able to live with it. Live with the word No and accept that it is a part of the business. It is just but obvious. Dont you say No to any salesman who comes knocking on your door? You are just another, with a different prodcut/service. Selling ice to an eskimo is something to reckon. Till the time you hone such skills, you must, must keep working. Try identifying and understanding the needs of the individual and focus on those aspects.
There have to be setbacks or so to say hurdles. But to beat them and progress ahead is the name of the game. You have to be on your toes. Make sure your pitch is correct. Make sure you are sure of what you say and also of the offering and the competition. That is possibly the only way to push your way to the top.
How would i do it ??
1. Make a note of all the people who have said yes and reason out why?
2. How would you position your service in a market which is price sensitive?
3. Hone your pitch to suit the adviser and see how you can mould them.
4. Get the superior to tell you what is the kind of adviser group that would join us in this proposition?

You surely have succeeded in making them turn and listen. You surely have managed to get them to hear you. But how would you close onto them? How would you make sure taht you have them with you?

Well, as i ponder on these very serious things.. there are far more important things in life to worry about.. like whats the sweet i would get at home today :D

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Defiance

Defiance: Meaning in simple terms to go against. It may sound rebellious at the first instance. But it may be just the opposite, it may mean trying to find a way to live. It might also mean, trying to uphold the truth.
Just the other day I came across an article mentioning about the iranian regime. Not really barbaric, but a little short is where i would place them. The methods no less closed, dictatorial than the nazi and the facist regimes. Undoubtedly, the people would have to fight, there would have to be defiance. It may be aggresive in nature, or simply for survival. There have to be leaders. May be of the beliskie cadre, or some other. People have to raise their voice against what they feel is incorrect. If not them, it would benefit the rest. If not today, tomorrow it would bring light into the lives of the many remaining. Undoubtedly, it calls for a lot more. It calls not only for the sacrifices of the people involved, but also of a sane mind who would be able to take charge, take care and be there when the group needs him.
Be it the lady in iran, or the jewish lads who warded off the german troops. It always took and would for every reason take a lot more than simple courage to defy.
But then, hasnt it always been the case. Take the case of Mahatma Gandhi or Nelson Mandela.
It is probably God's way of guiding the right and differentiating the right from wrong. However powerful, nasty and ugly the wrong may be, they finally have to meet an end. A sad and sorry end. No fraudster, gangster or a corrupt politician seen a happy ending story. If even one was lucky, he surely left a sad trail behind him for his epitaph.

Last, but never the least the entire meaning of the word defiance has changed for me thanks to the movie.
Owe it to whoever gave me this one :)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

The path to follow

Well, now just the other day i was reading a story about a painter and another scientist and yet another social reformer and an educationist. These people are the greats as we see them. They are not Gods, but humans. Some like you and me. But what draws them apart is the way they have led their lives and in a more useful and appropriate manner. What to do with the phenomenal amount of energy and capabilities? What to do with the network that you have? What to do now? Something that is more thrilling, more exciting and more intriguing.
Long gone is the fun to court. So also is over the fun to organize. Now life wants to be more meaningful, more mature and more practical. Everything is seen from the view point of whether it can be or cant be. It is seen from the perspective of what will help and how instead of the earlier care-free attitude in life. Everything is accounted by the amount that is credited in the bank, to the effort that is put in. It is a dog eat dog world. With the numerous opportunities at hand, it is all the more confusing. However, there is always a reason to everything for an educated. And so also, some dim nit-wit like me would want to know why and why not !! Heavens bless our soul. It though seems like i have decided to continue with this life of mine, trying to balance both what i want and what i wish. Which is what is again an enigma. And of course there is always a feeling of being sure of what i am doing and whether its the right way to go or not. Whatever be the case, its decided. I am going to go for it come the end of the fiscal. Go on and jump into this quick sand. To survive is something that i would have to manage and learn by that time. I have to know how. And so only, its necessary to excel at both places. Work while you work and play while you play is the perfect model of the life and the manner of existence that i am going to be subject myself to.
Anyway, not that i really intended to convey something path breaking. But this was just something that dawned on me lately. It has to be good both places. I have to perform. I have to prove that I am better than the best and have to do whatever it takes to achieve that.
Had a decent weekend though :) back to work tomorrow !!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

MJ - The Legend - The Best Entertainer of all Times

MJ - 1958 - 2009.

Never been an ardent MJ fan, but surely believed in him being one of those individuals who had attained a greatness when people were just finding their feet. Who had touched the hearts of millions when others are just learning the ropes of life. He lived life king size and why not. He was the KING.
A king in spirit and work. He was unparalleled when it came to music and Pop. He was the person who introduced POP to the world. From Billy Jean, to thriller, to Black or white, to my all time favourites of Heal the world, lost children, cry. He rocked the world of one and all who had the honour of listening to his songs.
He may not have sacrificed his life for anyone/any country, but he is loved, remembered and reverred all across the globe by young and old alike. For he was the one who brought them all together by the magic of his music. His lyrics were straight from the heart, straight from the gut.
Undoubtedly I am "Speechless" as I struggle to pay tribute to this wonderful person. He may have be condoned and hurt by scores of sharks in the world, pestered by the papparazzis, but the sheer number of people who turned up for his memorial show that people love him, people are with him and would be with him forever. He didnt live his life in vain. He made the most anyone could have.
MJ you would be regarded not just as an entertainer, but as a human, as a person who dreamt and worked to be what he always wanted to be. As someone who came from the so believed dis-advantaged section, but became a hero bigger than life.
You are an icon, a legend, an invincible spirit, angel personified. You would be always missed, but surely never forgotten. Your songs, your style and your persona would always over shadow everything that someone else would try to achieve. You have raised the bar to a level un-attainable by any normal human.

As someone rightly said it, God needs you more than we do. But we love you, will always miss u. May you rest in peace MJ. Loads of love.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Life is when there is a fight

Well, the last few months have made me realise that there is no fun in life when there is no fight. Be it for admissions, for CR, for the council or for the placements. Life is fun and exciting only when there is a challenge. Now in life when the challenges are less appealing and when there is enough time at hand, it feels mentally less interesting and less fun. There is enough time to while away doing nothing which i like. And for the rest, there is no company and no passion. Dead is that individual who would run up and down 5 times in 5 minutes for the sake of the council, or placements. Murder !!! comes the shout. Well, it may be the murder of the old me and here comes the more stupid, complacent, more tolerant me. Unfortunately, where does this lead me?
I cannot but think of something new everyday. I remember those wonderful college days with envy. That was something that i would never get back. The first day at college with faizal mohammad. Those days in the hostel meeting up with people and having dinner together. Its been a long long way from those initial hostel days to the days in the flat and the issues therein. Not to forget those times spent in the council and the hours and nights spent on working for Paragana. How we slogged and what we got? A tradeoff possibly never going to balance considering the emotional fulfillment that it gave. The times when i felt proud of having taken care of Paragana and the issue following it.
The tension and the tribulations of placements and the wonderful times spent with friends. Be it those expensive chacha excursions, or the wonderful sweet times spent at PR. The wonderful dinners at Angethi or the Jalebis at Tiwari. Life was fun. Everyday was different and you wouldnt know where you are going to be at what time. You woudlnt know what you are going to eat or do. So basically there was always the excitement of the unknown. There was very little time for anything else in life because of the permanent marriage with the activities of the college and the issues incumbent to a mammoth money making machine. With studies still taking some spare time in life, the present seems pathetic.
But then, I am sure the days ahead are not going to be smooth sailing. The sword is hanging. Its only days that i am counting i can prevent it from falling down. So lets take stock. Lets find out. How i can find something to fight for. No doubt, the job is challenging, but the principle of work while you work makes my play life difficult. I miss my friends, i miss those days in the quad, whiling time checking the beauty of God and eating nice food at expensive places.
However i may curse the place, but i still owe NM a lot in life.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Time and the meaning

Well, no doubt its been long that i posted here. But well, that surely doesnt mean that i dont have the time to write or that i have been busy. It might just be taken as a pint to tiredness, with a spoon of laziness and loads of other distractions :P
No, seriouly, its about time something be done of the uselessness of an individual when he comes home from work. There has to be some activity in the life of an individual when he returns from work till the time he may love or sleep or both. Now, what does one do? A hectic beginning and an equally funny job profile adding to the sorrow now. Well, not used to be home at 10pm in the night and then not free till 10.30pm at work made life very small and the time left for oneself very less. That was the time when i wanted that i have some time for myself, to introspect and understand where and how to go. But now, with a little too much at hand and not really knowing what to do, one really gets upset and nervous. There is a faction in the party which may say that u read, whereas the other may vote for guitar and the still other would root for the drums or simply reading. But, there is only one self and not so much of time as retirement. But simply tit bits where possibly i could simply read and while my time away constructively. So also, there are movies and masti galore waiting to be explored.
The time now has a completely different dimension. With there being literally no tension after work on most days, there is little to do but watch the television. As compared to in RCNI or in the council, there was always something or the other in the mind.
Nevertheless its one time of my life which i am enjoying today and possibly and hopefully so, not tomorrow. I would prefer to be on the move and be occupied for most of the times. But then.. as it is said " Change is the only thing constant in this world"

Till the time we put together heads again, happy birhtday DP and of course, you are free give me suggestions on what i could do.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Its all about time honey !!!

Life takes turns and mine took something that i had never envisaged. Everything seems so unreal. There is pressure and tension. One cant sleep. One cant enjoy without the thought of performance running circles in the head. The days of fun are over in a flash and then there is work, work and more work to support everything. Its like no where else. One has to think of performing and what not. Now that there is sometime there is time to think and write or rather simply write (as always)
The first time experiance is always the best and the most memorable. Be it the first time ballot or the job, there is always a first time and the memories are always fond and loving. It difficult to understand the why's or why nots :)
But then there is excitement and the wish to create a nice and friendly relationship with most. And over and above all of this, there is also the go getter nature. But I must also thank God for having given me the opportunity to work for a startup first up in life and be something. It teaches me the nuances of a small organisation and issues that people may be facing. Be it the simplest of the things or the most complicated one.
For me its all about time. When I came here, I was the first person in my batch to start work. People would be amazed how I managed both. Yes, I did miss the dinners and much more, but it was also the time that I couldnt spend with my friends.. But what could one do ?? As all things have a good side, so also did this. It made me know the people and the culture of iFAST. It has made me stronger and understand the company and the people.
Time, it teaches a lot. I am sure of the saying. Because, I am a different person as an MBA than I was, without it. It has made me a different person. I now am much more calm and patient. I have learnt that its HR skills that make a difference at the end of the day and nothing else. I am much more composed and it has taught how to push in more and more. How to stretch myself to the utmost limits and how to extrace the maximum out of myself. Its not something that one can dpo overnight. The friends there have taught me what perseverance and hardwork is. While some taught me how to be perfectionist, the rest taught me how to take blame, face a horde of people and also how to tackle people's ego. Its all about time. It teaches. It heals and like all the pain that I had in the first year vanished, so did the good memories end (Though they would never fade in my eyes) Be it the people shouting me out. Or be in the marine drive walks. Or those council work days or when we became the kings and fell down on our face. Its all a part of the game and part of the great big circle.
Well, today is the time when I am young and can take decisions on my own. Its time that i started thinking of the family and much more. I am really amazed at how time has flown by. The two years ended and lo !! I am back home already and that too with a job. I mean, imagine working from home is something very few have the privelege of.
As i see the things happening around me, all i can learn from it is that one has to be perfect in what one does and that once we commit we have to be sure to deliver. There is no replacement to committment. And over and above there is always the blessing of lady luck which never ditches. Not the hardworking and the brave.
Time is undoubtedly the best teacher one could have.
Enjoyed exercising my right to vote !!!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

The key that fails

The key to success is not in the bouts of intelligence that one reflects. Not to forget the formula is not available in the market for sale. What counts is not the number of hours one would have to spend here, but the actual work that one does. But then the world hardly functions according to the simple logic right. If not normal human tendency to deviate doesnt affect, there is uncle murphy to chip in with the issues galore.
Lets get to the main question that plagues most work places today? "You are born with a golden spoon, they can go home on time man !! " says on the colleagues to me.
Some other would tell me," Oh yes, we are the only scapegoats man, the rest all have to simply point to my team" These are just a few examples of how cry babies dominate a large part of the work force. Why dont we come up? Why dont we succeed? Are these the answer to such questions? Actually yes, i think they are. The word 'duty' so very well understood by our freedom fighters seems to have been misplaced as the generations have gone by. Its impossible to understand where it all went wrong? How did the teachings go waste? Did the generations degenerate or was it simply something that just resulted as a result of complacency. Its nothing more than a culmination of effects to my mind. The psychology today simply takes that we are in shit, we are the troubled souls. We are the sad souls. 'fati padi hai', 'lagi padi hai bhai' are the terms that one would hear again and again irrespective of anything good that happens. Complacency and laziness rule the roost with no scope of improvement. Why should I work if i am paid even if dont? The only way out of the culture is to create an structure so huge and massive that a few clumsy petty souls dont really make a difference. Such that these people are not so great contributors to anything at all. But when one is working, such an attitude is something to learn not to do in life. Its a learning that teaches that its not the right way to be successful in life. Work while you have it and party when u dont have it. Its as simple as that. Its a disaster to the employee morale when he sits in office even when there is no work. I guess being married/un-married makes a difference to the attitude. For those un-married, there is no reason to go home right? Because, what would they do at home? Rather why not be in office. Why not be working/not working while one may think there is loads of work being done. Lets face it, this is one attitude which we have to fight and one attitude which would make us aware that we should never attain such a life.
Oh come on, there is life beyond office and that too when there is no reason to work. Lets read, lets sleep and lets get a life where one can grow. Lets not stay in the small hole where we stand, for tomorrow lies not in the small steps, but giant leaps that we have to take.
I know thats enough of crap man....

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Closed

Well, the title seems too open for deciphering. From mind, to institutes to books, a lot can be closed.
What i feel today is something unique. Something that makes me connect to my seniors and the reason why they never turned up here since the time they left.
It feels closed. Thats all i can say. It feels like there is nothing left here and there is no one for whom you can sit here. The feeling of home is gone and there is no reason to believe that it would ever come for any other place. I am out. The doors have closed on me and there is no reason to believe that these were by far the most memorable times of my life. Each and every trip, each and every day, every dinner or lunch. All etched in mind till eternity. These times have ended,the days of the council and times spent there are over. There is nothing one can do more or can do less. Times have moved and so must you.
The question that comes to my mind is, why would one even want to come here?? For nothing my mind tells me. The juniors possibly? As one put it the other day.. "You are not required here" and true as the person was. There is nothing i need to do now. Nothing remains which they cant take care of. As someone said, "Kyun paka raha hai" Well, these just speak of the times to come. Possibly my idea of being helpful didnt work. But its ok. I am satisfied and happy. And for these responses, personal happiness is all one should be bothered about. Not to say that all the juniors would forget us or think similar, but, its always possible that they might. In MBA, people come for gain. There is gain, they invest, there is nothing they dont bother. Its the simple thing. They would do what we did, but the fact of the matter remains. There would be still no reason to come back. Its closed. There is nothing that would remind us of the times. Nothing that would bring a smile on one's face. Its just the infrastructure and possibly a few in the staff who would smile at us.
Its the way life is. This is exactly what one calls moving on. It would take time, for there is nothing to do beyond office hours. Friends arent a call away. No more are they there goofing around in the quad or planning some trip. No more sessions of gossips and fights, no more bitching about couples and people and spreading wrong rumours. Its all time. Its closed.
My mom always tells me, college life is the best possible. Enjoy it as well. I feel it to be absolutely correct today. I have had the best times in the 2 institutes and those are the things that I would never forget.

All in all, had fun. From chicken to chicks to drowning in booze, life has taken varied turns for me. From being the stupid nerdy types, i feel one has graduated into the higher category of being lost types.. :P
But, its been great. Made some wonderful friends for life, ones which would always remain close to my heart. The ones who would remind me of these wonderful times that we have had together. For now though.... its Closed. The chapter is over and there is nothing left to ponder. Yes its tougher than just finishing the most interesting novel. The emptiness is far greater and wish to go back is immense. But, for the good of all, for the betterment of future. It is closed and done with. :)

Had fun. Al d best to the junior team. keep up the good work and dont make mistakes we did. As Dr Kondap would say, "Make new mistakes everytime, not the old ones again."

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Time

Well, its said that "Time and tide wait for none". Sayings make a lot more sense when one really understands what they mean. Time and its realities was a tagline that read a few days back. It just gave a realisation that the dates in the calendar are closer than they seem. Its the time when we bade goodbye to this place.
However much each of us has hated and cribbed about this place, this is one which has brought us all together, and each and every place in this institute has its own story to tell. No place has been left untouched, un-spoilt :P. The more we hate this place, the more we would smile when we remember this sometime later. Each of us, placed or unplaced, are indebted to this place, for giving and not giving us what it did. We have learnt more lessons here than at any other place. We always had the freedom to make choices and the prioritize what we wanted to. Be it roaming around,sleeping with whoever we wanted to, to studying and making a mark in the best of the corporates. All above this, we have memories of all instances from the Ambdekar presentations, to the Mot court. From SFM's classes to the Razzies. From Paragana to Euphoria, its all there etched in our heads, for the years to come. And when years later, when many of us would be sitting for a cup of coffee, we would be in splits remembering these times.
Clock ticks even when the battery is not there, for the earth doesnt work on battery. As one saw the dusk of the 2nd euphoria, one felt the deja vu sink in. There was time, when we were running around, stressed and tired. And then the withdrawl symptoms followed by exams. Time just flew and there was nothing we could do to keep it stand still.
How do i feel like? An answer filled with complex responses and feelings. Something, that i wouldnt be able to answer. All i can say is that time has come for us to bid goodbye to this place. One which for me has been more than my home. Each and every moment here is cherished and well remembered. All the relationships that were formed and broken are etched in mind for the years to come. My thankyou would be a lot more personal and weird, but yes, this place has been wonderful when looked at in terms of the memories and the takeaways. No doubt people do MBA :)
Was a wonderful time gossiping today !!!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Years and emotions

It was October 11, 2009 when for the first time i happened to talk to AG. It was the garba night and we had to be there. But then, just the first day and yet one introduced and chatted. Not to know that this friendship was to last long and long and so much so that even after 5 years and scores of fights, the feeling is the same. That of love and affection.
Both the stories have taken turns and have had their share of ups and downs. There were times of joy and peace. And others full of turbulence, but never has the trust wavered,nor have those feelings gone.
It was all evident today when after nearly 2 years, i went all the way there just to meet her. Why, I have been asked? And that too when this was the first time in 5 months that you have happened to talk to her? Why? Is it really there?
There are questions galore, but all i know is that it was simply intuition and a feeling of love, friendship and that bond. It was nothing to do with money or anything at all. It was plain and simply pure bond. One that has lasted through the five months. From complete silence to full story telling, we both have had our share. We have shared secrets and kept them. But when it comes to talking and being frank.. i guess its the scorpion thing. We have to be honest to ourselves first and then to somebody.
I didnt do anything for her, i did it all for myself. The feeling of joy that i got when i happened to talk to her and see her was fantabulous. Nah.. not going overboard. Its just the euphoria of meeting someone u care for so dearly after 2 long years. Though would have loved to have more time to spend, but, guess whatever u get should be appreciated. And so here it is, " To the pure, faithful, worthy friendship, may it last sine die"

From Euphoria i remember.. isnt it this time next week.. al d best juniors.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

We will succeed

What does it take to succeed? A million dollar question and something that is the recipe for becoming the next big thing in life. Its like a Pandora's box. With more and more that one does, there is still more that can be done.

But when any project is undertaken, the people doing it have to believe in it. They have to have faith in the work, the idea and the very time-line that they have in mind. It all stems from the motivation level and will and the longing to get the target achieved. From AdZilla to Paragana'08, it was all passion. The will to win, the will to succeed. When there is a will, there is a way and when there is a way, there has to be hardwork. Talking wouldnt do, no time pass, no unnecessary waste of time. Its very essential at such junctures to be very systematic and calculative of the time. One has to prioritize, delegate and let go of things. One person cannot and would never be able to do everything.
But, if there is one thing that is common in all stories of success, it is tremendous belief in yourself(the idea) and a will to succeed. There is nothing in life like the whiff of success. It is a carrot that is offered to you, to come and get more, to be greedy and taste success. And it inturn makes you slog. Makes u work harder.
iFast would have to realise this very fast, lest its too late. Not everyone has to take all decisions. Yes, there have to be procedures, but then the people who are experienced in things should be dealing and not the novice. One doesnt need to do everything, but only something and very nicely.
Hopefully the Boss is always right mentality gives way to cooperative, and concrete learning. For only then can one achieve great heights and be successful.
What is the difference between the ordinary and the extra ordinary one may ask. The answer lies in the word 'extra'. An extra-ordinary person has something extra and that happens to be the ability to rise above the trivial. But not meaning that he leaves things to their own, just that he doesnt get into the one up-man-ship situation.
Anyways, there is still a long way to go and there would be many more alliances and teams all along. India has always followed the Non Alignment movement and so also would i. Its the safest and the best given the scenario. As it is when it comes to ones own domain, there is no one better than me out there.

Last but not the least.. "Jai Ho"

Friday, February 13, 2009

learning

The other day when someone mentioned learning, it reminded me of the fact that, failures are the stepping stones of success. I have all my life learnt from one and all. From the auto driver to the teacher to my friends and my parents of course.
Life is a teacher and there is no mercy for mistakes in the real world. And so the difference between reel and real. You are allowed to make mistakes but you would have to pay for them.
From my first re-collection of sujatha madam to kamala madam, mumtaz madam and then lakshmi madam not forgetting Bali madam, all have aided me to become what I am today. I am sure the teachers are the ones who have given me all. To my grand mom who has always been a rock solid support. My english teacher. One who has given me a strength, a winning edge throughout my career till date.
From Dr Kondap to Dr Bhat. From Varuna Saxena to Anshu madam, I have learnt things from each and cannot thank them enough for teaching me without telling me. The learning is there in how you interact with people and their reaction. From talking to Chung Chun to dancing with Rajesh, there is something hidden everywhere. No I am not crazy finding things where they dont exist, instead I am identifying all places where there are hidden traits of individuals. To be able to see the same for all and to be able to learn from them is what would make one a great individual, successful and happier a person.
I am not saying that one has to always suffer, but then there is something like trade-off. Didnt we always have to do that, then why not do it from day 1. Make sure that we dont repeat the mistakes made in the times. Desmond and Chung Chun made unsuspecting big shots. Possibly we dont know much, but then for their professionalism one has to give them 10/10.
Hope I am able to overcome all my shortcomings and score a goal in the corporate world. I would want to start on the right note and make sure that I do my best and that the organisation is successful.
Learning, as I would continue to live, would continue till I die.

New me

Corporate world is a different ball game. And having got the very first taste of it, its something like a new world opened for me. Times that people had had in their first jobs was something i realised now as i joined in. Business Development Manager is what i get called even if i am finally nothing different from a sales man in crude sense. Yes, thats we all are here for. Some sell soaps, some services while others have to sell themselves.
This place as i see it is a wonderful launch pad for me. But then I guess I would have to learn how to subside the underlying sense of aggressiveness and let it not appear even for the slightest moment. I have made mistakes in my grads and post grads guess its time I learnt the world of corporates. The world, where "Boss is always right". However you may hate it, you have to smile when he expects you to and make him feel right. Well, the place I am in gives me a lot better picture of the entire scenario. Lets work together and transcend horizons was something that Dr Kondap always said. I guess these words of his would stay with as my personal motto - "Lets work together my friends and transcend horizons". It may look like any other encouraging statement. Looking even a little deeper into it, this statement completes all that one organisation needs to succeed and reach the zenith. He has the knowledge and me the method, together we make a team and thats all we need.
From Chung Chun, to Rajesh, they have all been inspirations in terms of what one can do if one wants to and more importantly wants to. Let life take its course but make sure you flag it off when its not going where you had planned.
Things have changed for me forever. No more sitting idly in the quad leching at chicks walking by. No more whiling time talk and chatting to friends. For me its a smooth transition I would say in terms that I still get to come to college with my job and it wont be sudden. Every time I walk into the council, its a different feeling. Its a vacuum that I am experiencing. The effects of going away from something which has been my life for the past two years. I have given my blood and sweat for it, and here I dont even get to see it so often. But, as all good things have to come to end, so also this. Last year at this time we were thinking of how we would feel with our seniors gone. But here we are, after one year with our juniors, signing off. Unfortunately the pomp and show wouldnt be possible for us to work out. The economy and more so the mood of the batch doesnt really permit us a quad party. Something that was a common place the last year.. :)
On the whole, from learning to win trust of people and be nice and honest, I have also learnt how to adjust and make my way forward. And i hope that God would guide me to achieve what all I want to. What all I work for and reward me for the necessary.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Now I can say i work...

Well, its been time since i last wrote on this portal. Well ofcourse why not. The past few days have been like Whoa !!! I am no more the same old guy from college.
Yea, the past few days have been like I am a changed person, my existence is a new meaning.. :) No, not in terms of something weird, but simply in terms of a working individual. The company was true to its name and made me join in fast. Undoubtedly there is anxiousness and so also was there on day one, but guess thanks to the awesome work culture at work, I was made to feel at home. And dhana... Thanks a ton. Ur presence is always soothing. I wouldnt probably say it to any of u in person but Umads is the one that keeps the team laughing and can get everyone in splits in a second. Its the best thing about the place, that each and everyone of us has been there and done that. We are all young minds waiting to hit the right note.
But more so, its been a major step for me. From school, to high school continuing in college and now when I begin my journey in the corporate world I am a different person. Though, I may not be able to contribute directly, the energy and belief in oneself is surely going to see this service and this venture through all storms that we may have to weather. Be it sales, marketing or finance there are people for everything.... :P

As Chung Chun said, we are here to help our investors invest globally and profitably.
Thank you God for the gift. In these trying times it is nice for an individual to take sensible decisions and value oneself at the right value.. :)

Its a sea change.. lets see what we can think more of it in the next slab.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Back !!!

"When the going gets tough, the tough get going". Something that personifies that battle that was won today. It took 8GDs, 11 Interviews, 2 Shortlists to finally arrive at this number. It also has to account for the scores of sleepless nights spent worrying or the loss of weight :P. But when you are done with it, it all seems worth the fruits that you get. The salary, the structure the inhand all disappear inspite of all the ups and downs. Its all forgotten when you dont need to worry about the emails from placecom or when the clothes dont matter. And yea, you can sing, dance and do what you want to. Its just another way of saying, its life king size now.
For me it would also have another dimension with the job starting as early as february and only just a couple of days to go by. Its the new beginning, the new start. A new lease of life independant of all, on my own, for myself. Not am not being selfish or egocentric here. Its just another way of saying that I wanted to prove to myself that I was worth of getting through a company. I am happy not because of the scenario but primarily because of the profile and the job i expect here. The plethora of opportunities that lie in front of me, the scores of targets and goals to achieve. Oh come on, I am not going to leave so soon. It surely has to be as one of the business heads and heading an entire division of people I would want to lead. Only then would I be satisfied and only then would I be doing justice of the job. The ahmedabad factor and the intelligent thinking. The confidence in the interview as well as the presence of mind and the intelligent thinking came like they were hidden somewhere all these days and decided to showcase themselves.

For many of my colleagues this war against depression ended long back, for some it didnt start at all and for some the war is still waging and it needs to be taken care of. After looking at the processes and the various companies coming on campus, I would just say one thing. "Please continue putting in your 100% each and every time. Take calculated decisions, dont over estimate or underestimate. Be sure of what you do, why you do and do it perfect." Lastly, I know it might be gyan but then, its a fact. "Never say die, if not today tomorrow will be your day" and as I take it, its just the time till one's decided time has to come.
"There is enough for every man's needs, but not for every man's greed." - Mahatma Gandhi. He wasnt wrong. There would be something for everyone. Its just that one has to identify it and at times compromise based on one's assessment. When the times are bad every donkey is the king. Everything seems gloomy and things dont always look nice. But then who said life is not a sine curve. When we enjoy the crests so also we have to bear the troughs.

Now, for all the people I would like to thank apart from my dearest drrrrr and my family - Ruchi, DP, Goluuu, Nila, Diki - thank you sooooooo much. Sans you, I doubt I would have been where I am. It was only the constant encouragement, support and the sweet words that have taken me through the grind that I have thankfully cleared for now. I am never going to forget how each one of you has stood by me when I needed you. Its been wonderful knowing you and am sure this association is going to go a long long way in life.

Welcome to the Corporate World Mr Maniar :) :)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Eventful

Jan 7 - 8 '09. Now this is a date that means a lot. Got some of the best things happening today. Oh yea, the surgery was fine and things gonna work out well. But when it comes to friends. I am happy to announce a new member. (Details later). Well, the day also marked an end to the fraudulent systems at Satyam. Well, Raju is no more a gentleman. He is a pauper and going to be a jail bird very soon. And as I bid it adeiu I also became "Almost Famous". With Madonna singing "american pie", there is a question that arises in my mind. Is this the real world? Now are we living in a real world, with real people??

Let me get the things straightened before all hell breaks lose. I am proud of my buddy my yar, for all the guts he had today. It was the first time in a long long time that I have been so happy and that it came from him was un-imaginable. Oh yes, he is the most straight person and I am finally successful in corrupting him, this way or that. The end result is what counts. But, in the same breath I would like to point out that this is what he should have done loooooooong loooooooooong back and is something that he should be proud of. There is nothing wrong about it and I would stand by him even in the court of law. :P

NO, I wasnt talking of Mr Raju. Well he is now baju. But I hate him for breaking the wonderful rally up. He has given India its own indegeniuos "Enron". I guess we would have done without so much indianess in everything. With the day ending on another sad note, seems like the news are going to continue. But then with every sad chapter there is always a hope that things would be better. It just gives us that there are happier times than these waiting for us.

Lastly there is another thought that just came into my head "Almost Famous". Are we really living in a real world. In a situation of confusion I would want to heed to the advice of the great Creem Editor " Be honest and be merciless"

Happy birthday Yash and DD (wishes to both of u - may u both achieve your dreams)

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

New Year is here......!!!!

Oh now, come on.. smile please.. :P There is no gloom allowed here now, its all gone and in the past. Now is the time for CHANGE. This is just another of the wishes that the people have for the year gone by.

After 1933, its 2008 that is supposedly that has been taken as one of the most disastrous year financially for the world. With nearly all countries having faced the acute shortage of funds and scams surfacing everywhere. And when it ends with an attack, it is just the end of all the hope one had. The dastardly attack on the beloved Taj Mahal Hotel shook the very foundations of humanity. Apart from having scarred the hundreds in person, these attacks hit the country where it hurt the most. Unprecedented attack which led to the resignation of a Union Home Minister to be followed by the CM, Dy CM of the state. Leaving one and all in a state of shock and disbelief that on top of all the gloom there was more. It was like murphy said " When you think this is the worst, it is just yet to come"

Nevertheless, as some optimists may put it, it just brought the nation to stand up and finally act against the perpetrators of such acts, to bring to book all those involved and not leave any stone unturned to set the record straight.
A period has gone, the government is up in arms and all out against our friend - Pakistan, the beloved land of Jinnah, the part brother which led out this wonderful act of terror. Which spews venom at every instance possible.
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The by gones have to be by gones, and one has to push on. With the Taj in action and having 62% occupancy again, its back to business. But not without the scars seen on everyones faces. But now that the govt is full out to bring things back to normal, there is an effort to infuse enthusiasm in the people. "Please celebrate and forget the year 2008", was what one senior diplomat said before the new year. It means.. leave the sadness behind and start things with a smile.

Oh, I forgot, the placements are also progressing with a couple of companies a week and a trickle of people getting through. But then, what to do but smile. Its a situation when the best of the best are left behind and the ones getting through are doing so with all the lady luck can offer them. At this point in time it feels like let it come on, we would face it all with a smile and we can. I dont know why, i dont know how, but am sure we would be able to sail through this and happily too. Yes there are a few give and takes here and there, but on the whole we are going to be there. Its all like an intuition and seems very improbable yet true at this instance. There are times when there is hope, then happiness when someone else gets through, "Oh come on - he deserved it", and then there is dispair and thoughts of how to tackle the situation.

All in all, lets just get out these things from our heads for the moment, and think of all the new things that are going to happen in this year. Apart from the scores of marriages of batch mates, there might just be some surprise hidden in my life as well - you never know.. :)

Anyways.. Happy new year. Njoy life. Be happy.