Closed

Well, the title seems too open for deciphering. From mind, to institutes to books, a lot can be closed.
What i feel today is something unique. Something that makes me connect to my seniors and the reason why they never turned up here since the time they left.
It feels closed. Thats all i can say. It feels like there is nothing left here and there is no one for whom you can sit here. The feeling of home is gone and there is no reason to believe that it would ever come for any other place. I am out. The doors have closed on me and there is no reason to believe that these were by far the most memorable times of my life. Each and every trip, each and every day, every dinner or lunch. All etched in mind till eternity. These times have ended,the days of the council and times spent there are over. There is nothing one can do more or can do less. Times have moved and so must you.
The question that comes to my mind is, why would one even want to come here?? For nothing my mind tells me. The juniors possibly? As one put it the other day.. "You are not required here" and true as the person was. There is nothing i need to do now. Nothing remains which they cant take care of. As someone said, "Kyun paka raha hai" Well, these just speak of the times to come. Possibly my idea of being helpful didnt work. But its ok. I am satisfied and happy. And for these responses, personal happiness is all one should be bothered about. Not to say that all the juniors would forget us or think similar, but, its always possible that they might. In MBA, people come for gain. There is gain, they invest, there is nothing they dont bother. Its the simple thing. They would do what we did, but the fact of the matter remains. There would be still no reason to come back. Its closed. There is nothing that would remind us of the times. Nothing that would bring a smile on one's face. Its just the infrastructure and possibly a few in the staff who would smile at us.
Its the way life is. This is exactly what one calls moving on. It would take time, for there is nothing to do beyond office hours. Friends arent a call away. No more are they there goofing around in the quad or planning some trip. No more sessions of gossips and fights, no more bitching about couples and people and spreading wrong rumours. Its all time. Its closed.
My mom always tells me, college life is the best possible. Enjoy it as well. I feel it to be absolutely correct today. I have had the best times in the 2 institutes and those are the things that I would never forget.

All in all, had fun. From chicken to chicks to drowning in booze, life has taken varied turns for me. From being the stupid nerdy types, i feel one has graduated into the higher category of being lost types.. :P
But, its been great. Made some wonderful friends for life, ones which would always remain close to my heart. The ones who would remind me of these wonderful times that we have had together. For now though.... its Closed. The chapter is over and there is nothing left to ponder. Yes its tougher than just finishing the most interesting novel. The emptiness is far greater and wish to go back is immense. But, for the good of all, for the betterment of future. It is closed and done with. :)

Had fun. Al d best to the junior team. keep up the good work and dont make mistakes we did. As Dr Kondap would say, "Make new mistakes everytime, not the old ones again."