D - Destiny

Life is full of the unknown and thats the reason why humans can live it. If it were to be completely known, what fun would it be? For once, we all in life have had a time, when we were completely bashed by fate, when nothing is right and when one can do but anything to get things straight. And then there are times when u feel that everything around you is so wonderful. That there is no scope for anything better. This my friends is the see saw of life.

Destiny is something that one has to believe in. One may believe in Ram Rahim or Jesus, but destiny remains destiny. There is nothing more that saved so many who were headed for the "to be besieged hotels" but cancelled due to other reasons and thus were saved. And then there were others who would never have hurt a fly and were caught in the turmoil never to return. There are instances galore. The examples may never end. From life to death, from jobs to no jobs, from loss to profit if there is a force beyond one's control its fate. " dane dane pe likha hai khane wale ka naam" a dialogue from a film re emphasising the known.

Who had thought that I would get shortlisted this often and would be able to go through 2 interviews, but at the same time who had also thought, I wouldnt be the right fit both places.. :P Thats the irony of life. Sometimes, we humans due to our brain start thinking that we know everything. That we have an answer to all. Also that we can rule over all other beings and have everything within our reach. This where we fail, this is where we falter. Its high time we realised the importance of the forces. The limitations to our expanse, it better be understood. Or, we may just end up paying for it.

Its difficult to understand why it happens, why it doesnt. It happens because it is meant to be. Why didnt I become the president? Why didnt I get into L&T? These are questions which have no answer. And please, lets forget expecting anything without working for it, but, after all the toil and pain, its not just the wish that makes it happen. Oh come on, there are too many things that drive this quest. Too many factors have to be accounted for before we finally get something. As somebody put it, my life is D centric.. From my dearest, beautiful Drrr.. to the loads of buddies and then DESTINY :P

Oh yes, thats what God told me, you have had a smooth upbringing, now be ready for some tough times, but... he has equipped me more- when the going gets tough, the tough get going.. So bring it on, am ready.

dedicated to 'Slumdog Millionare' a movie unique and mindblowing - hail piracy :)
happy birthday - cash kid !!

Friends :) :)

noun 1 a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations.
2 a familiar or helpful thing.
3 a person who supports a particular cause or organization.
4 (Friend) a Quaker.

This is what comes out of the Oxford Dictionary when you type the word "friend"

Only in times of need do you realize everything of what they mean and how much they mean to you. The word indispensable disappears as soon as we talk of friends. No I am not talking of the well wishers or the ones to say good things on one hand and forget you the other moment. Its not about wishing you luck, or getting something for someone. Its more about being there. Being with the person, standing tall, standing firm. It is more to do with emotional than the physical. Its a feeling that you get when for you, there are people waiting and waiting. Just to hear that yes !!! Just to see that happiness on your face. In spite of all what you would have said earlier or would have done to them, there they are waiting for you. You may fall or stand tall, they are there with you. You didn't eat, neither did they. You didn't move out of the room, awaiting the result, neither did they. You wanted to shy away and run, they were there to sheild you. You wanted help, they did everything they could. Everything that would have helped you. Be it teaching you how to speak or simply - Being There. Standing shoulder to shoulder telling you that dont worry, we are there. Its the time when you want to hug them and tell them how much you love them. A time when you dont want to thank them but are so thanful to them. Its a feeling beyond words. And when they hear that no, its more of a sad feeling for them as for us. Its something that even they so badly wanted and that too so unselfishly. Forgetting all their worry, their work, here they are with you. These are the people I would call as friends.

They are the comfort which helps you do well, they are the confidence with which you speak. They are the ones who understand your need without you having to express it. Its they who do it without you even asking for it. They are the thoughtful ones and are the ones who wish good for you from the bottom of their hearts. These are the blessings that are going to be with you for the years to come. These are the pleasant memories and the times that are going to be the most memorable ones.

My dearest buddies, I would just say one thing here; I love u all, and anything for you anytime in life. And when I say anything, it could be just anything for seeing those smiles on your faces and in your hearts. DP, RT owe you the day.

A wonderful day for placements today.. kudos my dearest maddy, ajay and nikhil. You did Div D proud. Way to go guys. Hope this is the beginning we were waiting for.

Follow your heart, really ?

Seems like my heart is mad. It took me to my first crush and then to another and then another and so on till i finally met someone with whom I am now bound to spend my life.. How sad. No change permitted. (just kidding, arey on the change part re.. )

Heart pumps is an organ that pumps blood to the body - a definition that we studied. But then what about the feelings that the movies had talked of? Where do they come from? Who controls them? What are they? These were the questions for the teacher. :) No wonder she had no answer, for its not biology thats being asked. Its a quest that we humans have always had. These questions have always plagued me as to why and how does the heart get feelings.

The heart is usually lke Iran and Brain like USA. Rarely if never do they go together. If the heart says she is HOT, the brain says.. what use? and there goes waste the adrenalin rush... :) When you felt that there was someone really smart, the heart said it was broken and would not be able to patch up. Now come on. Why cant they just be friends just for once. Thats what I had thought and then lo... here I fell in love... :P

On a different note, when i wanted to be a doc, there was a feeling that there is no scope. When the heart says SVNIT, the brain over ruled and said that there was no reason to leave Nirma. And so and so forth, there have been umpteen instances of such a conflict and what to do of it is something I havent been able to decipher as yet. Just then when life seemed charted, there came in the dilema of doing finance or marketing. And this dilema continues........

Oh, should I go home ? Guess this would never end....... Merry Christmas !!!

life is like a mountain, but is more of the sea.

Now.. U may wonder why and where I got this stupid thought and does the heading even make sense. Well, considering that not all things in this world make sense it may still pass the thought process.

Starting from the very recent times, the past few days were as rejuvenating as any. It was a feeling that came in inspite of the fact that there simply might not be any jobs. But then, could I simply sit sulking the whole day and not be happy? I reckon not. The joy of gifting something, the joy of meeting someone. These are the pleasures of life that most of us miss. The joy that we tend to neglect and undermine in search of the scores of worldly pleasures. When one climbs a mountain, one tends to feel better and better. Its a long winding road and no one knows what lies ahead. The climb up the hill is always difficult. And so is the case when it comes to life. Why should we not relax and take a breath. When it comes to life, it seems there is no time for breath and that the climb has to be continuous. The times when you take a day's break and do nothing, life seems to seem to beautiful, so calm, so peaceful (No doubt weekends were thought of) Else, the human greed would have led to his own fall. The journey as any is unpredictable and full of turbulences and turmoils. Compare it with the sea or the mountain, it comes to the very same coclusion. Life is uncharted. It is undecided. However much we may plan, unless it has the blessings of the unseen force, there is nothing that can make it happen. Be it the biggest of the projects undertaken or the smallest of the gestures that we do, all are governed and meant to happen. Why are the boulders on a mountain poised as if they would fall off the next moment, but never do. Why are the trees hanging so precariously from the mountain sides? The answer lies in the fact that they are meant to be here. The answer lies in understanding that they are here for a purpose and that they combat this situation for a reason.

When I see the Arabian Sea at Juhu Beach, it gives me a feeling of being small and insignificant. Its a great place to go if one wants to know that his being something big actually is nothing in front of the greatness in this world and nothing in front of the forces of nature. We may have tamed the animals, and tweaked the sources of nature to our benifit, but we would never be able to tame the nature. The day human kind attempts to do it, nature would strike back. From the earthquakes to the tsunamis its just the force's way of saying that remember I exist. The ocean so vast and so mighty makes me feel more humble. As I stand on the beach, I feel nothing more than a speck. Trying to conquer the seas is just not a joke. The sea any its vagaries have wrecked many a lives. It has been a warrior battling the brave and simply gulping down the meek. Life is something very very similar, it is something that we enjoy on one instance and on the next we fight to stay alive. Ruthless - a word that can go for the seas as well as for the life that we live. Exist of exit was something that one of our profs said the other day, Darwin had said it years ago.

However, this is what makes life, sailing and mountaineering equally challenging. Its something that one has to live upto to enjoy the real essence of it. All said and done... its a struggle that each and everyone has to go through, some find it fun and make the most of it learning all along while the rest crib and cry and stay where they are.

Words of wisdom from baba eh..... ? Do i really need to do finance? It pays meagre anyway. :P

Mistake yet again ?

It is said, "failure is the stepping stone of success". What to define as success is another of such varied questions. Its simply not something that one can always hold, or experience. Its sometimes hidden. Knowing the real nature of an individual at times is success. Being able to win a battle may be success or so also simply being able to be calm can be success.

The days so far have been a mix of success and mistakes. My mom tells me i never learn. At times, i understand why she says so. Its right when it comes to the other kind of people i interact with. Be it simple, normal and non-indulging, be it straight, yet there are times when u feel why do u need to be so kind, so good. What is there in this world that warrants that kind of a feeling. Nothing is the answer. Apart from the one you love and a few who love u, such feelings for others are nothing but mistakes that appear as successes. And hence we come back again to the debate of success. It was nothing but failure to understand and gauge. Times change and so do people. And with people their ideas of success and failure. When you cant change at the same pace, your success becomes history.

Its been lessons well learnt always and so the careful approach. Yet, keeping in mind the time needed to be invested in important things, lets stop career counseling and get back to the basics of B School - selfishness and self centered attitude. It never pays to be so kind it is said. For though in theory, its the best thing, but when practical life is concerned it is just another vice that one has. I may not want to elaborate here for it may be an individual vice and hence i wouldnt want to generalise it. However, in this race, I dont think, I would want to waste time. Its enough of losing on all fronts. I would now look for the material and real success rather than the more inner ones.

Nepal was fun, was all the more beautiful in a different way than expected. It did change my way to look at life. It opened a facet that was absent.

Salute the himalayas for they stand tall amidst all the successes and losses of mankind. Respect them for the years they have behind them and the misery and rise that they would have seen.
Would want to rise as high as them and be away from the worldly drugeries of success and failure. But guess would have to be that old enough.. :P

No Peace

Since the time we started going to 'play group', there was always been rush. Always been competition. Always been the race to come 'first'. To beat the rest, to excel. When one was in nursery one had to know the a,b,c 's and then went on the grueling, torturing, painful process of learning... :) One which has always been full of effort to keep up with the world. But what was world back then? All one knew was related to the history and the geography texts that one mugged up. But when it came to reality, was one really capable of taking on the world? Difficult though never impossible. It all had to boil down to the bio marks to get into Engg. What a wonderful system that.
Graduation was loads of fun, but then there was always the feeling of doing something different and hence the events taken care of therein. Whether i knew enough of heat exchangers or not, the efforts put in were sufficient to do a PhD in Event management. Though, studies were done with the zest of becoming a wonderful engineer only to lose that steam once the mba brigade got started and there went the L&T job. Landing up in NM was another no big achievement. It stands 16th all India (I knew then).
Then came on the same old scenario again. It had been 21 years of seeing that same old story. So much so that, it didnt really take time to get into the mould. Only to be looking back and thinking that its been a lot invested in such activities. Only to realise (hopefully not a little too late) that one also needed to excel in what was the bread and butter. With the scope of markets and industry not so blooming as they were once upon a time. Its time that books had to gain preference over everything. So much so that, for the past few days its been nothing but them and me and the wonderful walls of my house. Its now time to say "Full speed ahead", firing on all cylinders to reach where it was essential. To salvage all that one has invested. Not monetarily my friend (its a sunk cost already), but emotionally. The image, the facade must prove mettle. It must be able to beat the worst of the storms and pass through the most turbulent of times behind.
As was seen lately, the barbaric attack on the soul of mumbai made us realise that there was no peace. The Bhramkumari's and the RaviShankar's may talk and preach. But when it comes to reality, when it comes to practicallity, its a fact that there is no peace. Be it the city, the country or one's life.. the essence remains the same. And as the beloved CDG put it, its about "Exist of Exit"

Here to Exist for years still.. and so need to leave this at it. Who said people crave for salvation? here we crave for want of more of everything... :P