Lost

No, I am not lost literally when we mean lost as in, not aware of where to go.. but rather literally, meaning lost as to why? how?
Havent really gone as crazy as this in the past. Its a new phase and hence the feeling no doubt. But then yes, this is what happens when you start working. When u shift focus from being friends, having fun, enjoying life to earning life, earning more money and even more ego. Friends are the things that have always had me sailing thick or thin and m sure would remain that way..(Drr.. u are the best one of course). But amidst all the work, the pressures and the un-necessary hassles of the work place and systems.. where is the fun lost.
Surely, going out and eating with all of them is not fun. Having a laugh at the end of the day is not something that makes my day. I get that kiddo like adrenaline rush when i happen to talk to my buddies or simply go check out a friend's ol NM album,or the Nirma album, or the school pictures. This is immediate remedy to my sorrow and feeling of utter boredom, sick feeling. Nothing cures heart ache better than a batch of awesome old memories.. photographs, chat anything i can lay my hands on.
Apart from all of this hooplah, there is also the issue of the friends themselves becoming a little more aloof, rather, more involved in their daily tribulations.
Been ages since i spoke to the wonderful juniors... Been ages since i ever went out to simply hangout and chill.. Be it on the beach, or simply on marine drive and had those endless, useless, pointless discussions. Surely, it has been a real while since i last fought in the real essence of a fight over something that we were all completely not concerned about, but emotionally attached to - SCR :P
My roomies and the late night chats on whose butt that is.. (inverted picture identification :P) to talking of who is doing what, where and since when.. it feels like far and as if disconnected..
IN SHORT ....!!! I AM LOST. Why ??? Coz my friends have disappeared. There is actually nothing to talk about when we talk if we talk. Some have stopped calling. Yes, seniors are gone and we are the seniors so why remember them?? Apart from the normal gossip.. we have all become boring..!!! I hate this life. I want my college life back. I now realise what it means as being in college and having fun.

Hell yaaaaa.......... chuck the sorrow.. look at the brighter side.. Its going to be a busy and involving next week in Singapore :P